Hi Ren | Ren (Song)
Intro:
Creating this song wasn’t easy, but I’m so proud of how it turned out.
Want to say a big thank you for everyones support over the years. During the years trapped inside with chronic health problems the main thing that kept me going was a belief that one day I would come out the other side, and be able to achieve success through music.
I don’t have a label, and sometimes pushing these things as hard as I want becomes a massive challenge, and I find myself frustrated that there aren’t enough hours in the day to push it as far as I want to.
I would love to ask a favour to anyone who has ever enjoyed my music over the years, and it will only take a few minutes of your day.It would mean the world to me if you shared ‘Hi Ren’ as much as you can, over social media platforms, with friends, over email.
Together, and with your help I can hopefully reach people all over the world, and get one step closer to the dream I always had! Thank you so much for the support so far!
Ren
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Song written, performed, directed by Ren
Cinamatographer – Samuel Perry-Falvey
First A.C. – Joshua styles
Lighting – Jacob Neller
Location – Will Rumfitt
Content Source/Owner: Ren
https://www.renmakesmusic.co.uk/
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Hi there, Ren
It’s been a little while, did you miss me?
You thought you’d buried me, didn’t you? Risky…
‘Cause I always come back
Deep down you know that…
Deep down you know I’m always in periphery
Ren, aren’t you pleased to see me?
It’s been weeks since we spoke bro, I know you need me
You’re the sheep, I’m the shepherd, not your place to lead me
Not your place to be biting off the hand that feeds me
Hi, Ren
I’ve been taking some time to be distant
I’ve been taking some time to be still
I’ve been taking some time to be by myself since my therapist told me I’m ill
And I’ve been making some progress lately
And I’ve learnt some new coping skills
So I haven’t really needed you much man
I think we need to just step back and chill
Ren, you sound more insane than I do
You think that those doctors are really there to guide you?
Been through this a million times
Your civilian mind is so perfect at always being lied to
Okay, take another pill, boy
Drown yourself in the sound of white noise
Follow this 10 step program, rejoice!
All your problems will be gone! Fucking dumb boy
Nah mate, this time it’s different man trust me
I feel like things might be falling in place
And my music’s been kinda doing bits too
Like I actually might do something great
And when I’m gone maybe I’ll be remembered
For doing something special with myself
That’s why I don’t think that we should talk, man
‘Cause when you’re with me it never seems to help
You think that you can amputate me?
I am you, you are me, you are I, I am we
We are one, split in two that makes one so you see
You got to kill you if you wanna kill me
I’m not left over dinner, I’m not scraps on the side
Oh your music is thriving? Delusional guy!
Where’s your top ten hit? Where’s your interview with Oprah?
Where are your Grammys, Ren? Nowhere!
Yeah but, my music’s not commercial like that
I never chased numbers, statistics or stats
I never write hooks for the radio
They never even play me, so why would I concern myself with that?
But my music is really connecting
And the people who find it respect it
And for me that’s enough ’cause this life’s been tough
So it gives me a purpose I can rest in
Man, you sound so pretentious!
Ren, your music is so self-centered
No one wants to hear another song about how much you hate yourself, trust me
You should be so lucky
Having me inside you to guide you
Remind you to manage expectations, provide you
Perspective, that thing you neglected, I get it
You wanna be a big deal… Next Jimi Hendrix? Forget it
Man, it’s not like that
Man, it’s just like that
I’m inside you, you twat
Nah, it’s not, man, you’re wrong, when I write I belong
Let me break the fourth wall by acknowledging this song
Ren sits down
Has a stroke of genius
He wants to write a song that was not done previous
A battle with his subconscious…
Eminem did it
Played on guitar
Plan B did it
Man, you’re not original, you criminal
Rip off artist, the pinnacle of your success is stealing other people’s material
Ren, mate, we’ve heard it all before
Ohh “she sells sea shells on the sea shore”
Fuck you, I don’t need you, I don’t need to hear this
‘Cause I’m fine by myself, I’m a genius!
And I will be great, and I will make waves
And I’ll shake up the whole world beneath us
That’s right, speak your truth
Your fucking god complex leaks out of you
It’s refreshing to actually hear you say it!
Instead of down play it…
“Oh, music is all about the creative process and if people can find something to relate to within that then that’s just a bonus”
Fuck you, Ima fucking kill you, Ren
Well, fucking kill me then
Let’s fucking have you, Ren
Ima do it, watch me prove it, who are you to doubt my music?
‘Cause I call the shots I choose if you die
Yeah, I call the shots and so I who choose who survives
I’ll tie you up in knots then I’ll lock you inside
News flash…
I was created at the dawn of creation
I am temptation
I am the snake in Eden
I am the reason for treason
Beheading all Kings
I am sin with no rhyme or reason
Sun of the morning, Lucifer
Antichrist, father of lies
Mephistopheles
Truth in a blender
Deceitful pretender
The banished avenger
The righteous surrender
When standing in front of my solar eclipse
My name it is stitched to your lips so you see
I won’t bow to the will of a mortal, feeble and normal
You wanna kill me? I’m eternal, immortal
I live in every decision
That catalyzed chaos that causes division
I live inside death, the beginning of ends
I am you, you are me, I am you, Ren
Hi Ren…
I’ve been taking some time to be distant
I’ve been taking some time to be still
I’ve been taking some time to be by myself and I’ve spent half my life ill
But just as sure as the tide starts turning
Just as sure as the night has dawn
Just as sure as the rain fall soon runs dry when you stand in the eye of the storm
I was made to be tested and twisted
I was made to be broken and beat
I was made by his hand, it’s all part of his plan that I stand on my own two feet
And you know me, my will is eternal
And you know me, you’ve met me before
Face to face with a beast I will rise from the east and I’ll settle on the ocean floor
And I go by many names also
Some people know me as hope
Some people know me as the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope
And you know how I know that I’ll prosper?
‘Cause I stand here beside you today
I have stood in the flames that cremated my brain
And I didn’t once flinch or shake
So cower at the man I’ve become
When I sing from the top of my lungs
That I won’t retire, I’ll stand in your fire, inspire the meek to be strong
And when I am gone I will rise
In the music that I left behind
Ferocious persistent, immortal like you
We’re a coin with two different sides
When I was 17 years old I shouted out into an empty room, into a blank canvas, that I would defeat the forces of evil, and for the next 10 years of my life I suffered the consequences… With autoimmunity, illness and psychosis. As I got older, I realized there were no real winners or no real losers in physiological warfare. But there were victims and there were students. It wasn’t David versus Goliath, it’s was a pendulum eternally swaying from the dark to the light. And the more intensely that the light shone, the darker the shadow it cast.
It was never really a battle for me to win, it was an eternal dance, and like a dance, the more rigid I became, the harder it got. The more I cursed my clumsy footsteps, the more I struggled. And so I got older and I learned to relax, and I learned to soften, and that dance got easier. It is this eternal dance that separates human beings from angels, from demons, from gods. And I must not forget, we must not forget, that we are human beings.
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Songwriter: Ren Gill
Lyrics source: https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/ren/hiren.html
